day 43

Today I spoke to a woman who has 60 day cycles at times and is trying a hormone which is making her ovulate exactly on day 14 so she stands a chance of getting pregnant. I spoke to another woman who -under stress- recently had three periods in 28 days. Then I saw another woman who has a miscarriage around 8 months ago and she is pregnant again and happily in her second trimester. I have not joined a Family Planning group. This was at work. Based on my wee test of 12 days ago I am due for a period in 2 days. I had a big crying tantrum today thinking the world had it in for me which based on my run ins today is clearly not true but the fit is a great sign of my imminent bleed. I am flat and dark like a road at night and I feel the urge to become an emo and write sad poems.

Really sad.

Oily Hair.

Line Drawings.

Sighing.

Really sad.

Oh so sad.

Sad sad sad.

Crying.