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Happy New Year. And a big, fond farewell and fuckyou to 2007.

Perhaps there will be more of our bog.

The audient has made himself known to us...and has all but clamoured.

Time has healed all wounds...

More wounds have been created, but then time has stepped in again and healed those ones too.

Time, thou must untangle this, not I.

Tis too hard a knot for me to untie.

Yes, more Shaken Shakespeare will be quoth in the bog. Methinks. Yes, bong on to that.

Dear Readers,

Some catch up? Oh how dreadful to have to. The other writer said as much about miscarriage #2 and anyway lots of people reckon three's a crowd. No, a charm. Third time's a charm. Three strikes and I'm out, too, but let's not worry about that. And so we come in on the continuing stooooory of a hospital that's gone to the dogs. (Rolf the dog, in hospital scrubs or at a piano, best muppet ever. Rolf should be the name of our baby except too Nazi boy.)

And now, to working on that charm.

Last night I dreamt and dreamed that i was swimming and i went under water and it was too dark to see anything. Ah ha ha ha hah ahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaa. So funny.

Then, my baby sister-still dreaming here- was pregnant again. Haaaaha ha ha ha .

So I'm juss saying that if it turns out that I go swimming in a dark river soon and/or whatsername announces some news then I am a total side kick.

I am drinking orange juice out of a measuring jug.

I am home, and maybe ovulating -in a dark river without goggles. DD (Donor Dad for the un-inish) is coming over to do something unspeakable in the bathroom, and then, because of the nature of timetabling, my mrs will be at work for this insem and I will be left all alone with a syringe full of jiz. He has his own special cupboard shelf where we put the boiled specimen jars for him to "collect" his semen in. Oh yes, at the place that tests stuff they say "collect". "How long ago was this collected?". Then he will collect himself and leave it for me and say bye.

I have been on homo pathetic medicine for 5 months now. Its apparently going to make my menstrual cycle:

1- regular (hasn't)

2-Shorter (hasn't)

3-more ovulating in the middle, like day 14. (no)

4-obvious. like, signs. like mucus going eggwhitey to indicate fertile period .(.... whatever.)

It's also sposed to stop the cycle of miscarriage. Encourage a proper implantation wherein the thing goes into a good spot to get nutrients and last longer. like, about 30 weeks longer. Sorry I said thing. Here's hopin'.

My very oldest best friend had a tiny girl 4 weeks agao. Holding her in my arms and doing that baby jig that Kt180 taught me has made me think that pregnancy = baby. Not miscarriage. A very good re-frame, indeed.I even looked at some of our baby clothes in the storage alcove and was ok.

To the future....bongs to you all and fare thee well.

jam