A Becket Play Ending

The appoinment for Friday morning at RPA was unapologetically cancelled on Thursday afternoon. There was apparently a family emergency for the Doctor and no indication was given as to how long things would take to sort out, rebook appointment, or when that appointment might be. Apparently there is no other genetic Doctor in the hospital, and no other replacement organised. Perhaps I might hear from them today or tomorrow with an update or an appointment. The genetic "counsellor" (I have no idea in the world why they use that title), upon prodding and pestering, gave me some information. As far as she could read, neither me nor DD had anything wrong in any of the results. Lupas Anticoagulant looked normal for me, which was the one they could actually do something about - the asprin antidote-, and chromosomes were all normal, as were, she thinks, the other tests. But we need to se a doctor to properly have them interpreted and also to run the rest of the tests -that they held back on running in the first round. I know these tests are a big deal to run, but they appear to be stretching things out quite amazingly. My last miscarriage was 13 weeks ago.

So we feel we have run out of time, with no further information as to why I am having miscarriages and no indication of really ever getting any, we are taking the pressure off. We have talked thoroughlly and searched our hearts and are choosing to stop trying with me and start trying with KT180. This is not out of the blue but it is a hard fekken decision to make. IT seems like the obvious thing to do but I am still a bit angry and sad that it got the better of me after nearly two years of trying. And at exactly the same time it is easy and right and smooth and exciting to let the fuck GO and try something else!

I am still taking the homeopathic medicine every morning and indend to seek further alternative therapies soon in a longer term way to investigate further and to get me in tip top condition by the time we are ready for our second baby. One focus is evening out my cycle, which may be the answer. Already, perhaps with the homeopathics, it is perhaps evening out. This cycle I ovulated on day 15 with fairly clear indications. I am thinking about three options as well as or instead of homeopathy.

1- The Jocelyn Centre, natropathy.
2-Pure Botanicals, Natropathy and a bit of acupunture if needed.
3-A woman in Rozelle who has been recommended, Chinese herbs.

Not at all sure which way to go. Any advice would be appreciated.

Plus I'll need to start earning more money soon.